Hello, my friend!

"She behaves as if she was beautiful. Most American women do. It is the secret of their charm."

Papa Roach - Getting Away With Murder
Somewhere beyond hapiness and sadness
I need to calculate what creates my own madness
And I'm addicted to your punishments
And I'm your master, and I am craving this disaster

I was about to start a new life but the memories about him kept me from a new beginning ... When I close my eyes, I see a picture of him. He doesen't need me, but I don't feel it and still don't believe it. Something or someone don't want us to be together. So, the hope in my haert still exist. I'm not that kind of people who likes suffer every day about everything, but his look really hearts me. HEY! WHAT SHOULD I DO? I don't even know what I want =\

The dust is thick on the city street,
The smoke on the city sky
Hangs dense and gray at the close of day --
And the city crowds surge by
With heavy feet through the summer heat
Like a sluggish sullen tide; ...
But hand in hand through a magic land
We are wandering side by side.
 
For somewhere, dear, there's a magic land
On the shores of a silver sea;
And there is a boat with turquoise sails --
With sails that are wide and free;
A boat that is whirling through the spray,
That is coming for you and me!
 
Somewhere, dear, there's a singing breeze
That creeps through the laughing air
To the wide-flung boughs of a blue-black tree --
It touches your joyous hair;
And the touch of it is as soft and light
As a baby's lisping prayer.
 
Somewhere, dear, there's a bit of beach
Where the sand is warm and white;
Where the sky seems close and the drifting clouds
Are tenderly, warmly bright.
And there is a ship with turquoise sails,
With sails like a living light!
 
Ah, the ship is bringing us dreams come true,
And hopes that are all dew-kissed;
It is bringing us days that are all aglow
With scarlet and amethyst; . . .
Bringing us faith to find our way
Through a world that is wrapped in mist.
 
Our window looks on the city street,
We can glimpse the city sky;
But our hearts are gay at the close of day,
Though the tired crowds pass by
With heavy feet through the blinding heat,
Like a sullen, sluggish tide. . . .
For hand in hand through a magic land.
We are wandering side by side.

There's a lien on your dreams
That keeps you going under
And a hole in the floor
That drops us all together
You can fight all you like
There's no way to hide
All the lines on your face
Show you've got no place in here
 
As long as the setting sun will shine
As long as the setting sun will shine
As long as you fight!
 
But it's the same every day
It drives the world insane
And the lies of mankind
Burn you up inside
But it hurts and what's worse
There's no way to reverse
When your mind wants to start
Pulling you apart, baby
 
'Cause I needed more, and I need it more
Will you satisfy
I needed more, I needed more
But this is more than I ever wanted